news.

I wasn't sure if I was going to blog about this or not, but it turns out that I am. Those of you who know me, or have been visiting my blog for a while, know that we have been working on the adoption process for a couple of years now. Well, right at the beginning of the year we were matched with a baby, due in early April. There is also a five-year-old sister currently in foster care that we have been hoping to adopt as well.

But... it's been a situation filled with confusion and conflicting reports coming to us second-hand. And this weekend we got the news that the baby is not going to be put up for adoption after all, and as the mother is still trying to get custody of the little girl as well, we're stepping back completely. These are apparently not the children who are meant for our family. And it is, well, heartbreaking.

These last six years of waiting for another child have always been accompanied by a dull ache, fairly constant but usually easy to ignore. Because really, our life is quite a happy one. But this new pain has been different, sharper and hitting me in waves of emotion that have made me quite teary.

And yet, miraculously, it is already fading away.

Because we know without a doubt that God has a plan for us, that He knows and loves us, and truly does work all of these experiences together for our good. And I can be sure that there are other happy things in store for us, as there always are.

Comments

[Michelle Yeager]

how heartbreaking. your family will be in my prayers.

[kirsten]

oh, amy, i'm so sorry. but that last paragraph says it all - good for you for having such faith. you are very loved - and your amazing family, too.

[mollie]

you don't know me...in fact, this is the first time I've encountered your blog...but I just wanted to send a word of encouragement.

I'm the oldest of six adopted children. We range from 28 down to 3. My family has known joy and sorrow, but always said that God put our family together in His time because He does have a plan.

Blessings on you and your family during this difficult time. You will be in our prayers.

[Renae]

I love you bunches! Here's a big hug ( ).

[Karen]

Heavenly Father is just waiting for you to get a sweet kid like Zach. (Maybe not exactly like Zach- I don't think the world is ready for two of him!)

[Jeanette]

I'm so sorry Amy. That stinks royally but you are right. That little someone is waiting for you guys and will be with you before we all know it.

[Shelley]

Just found your blog today and couldn't resist commenting. Your final paragraph struck a chord in me, though I'm arriving at those same conclusions as a result of a very different situation. I said a prayer for you just now - and I'll check back to see how God continues to work in your life.

[joanna]

i am sure God has better plans for you, dear...

[collette clay]

Amy, I love you and I am so Blessed to have you in my Life. you have such tremendous faith, and I know that there are many Children waiting to come to your Family. until then I know that you will continue to give Love to all the Children around you, like you do to mine. and once this little stinker comes into the World I hope and pray that you come and Love on him as much as possible. :)

[raesha]

My prayers are with you.

[Melissa]

I am so sorry that things did not work out. I bet you'll have other happy opportunities in the future. My prayers are with you.

[Kasie@~The Art of Life~]

(((Hugs!)))
I know this must be such a difficult thing to go through. I too believe that God has a plan for each and every one of us and I know that He has much happiness in store for you. :)